Wednesday, May 31, 2006
i realised how evil, how meanie, how bitchy i was today. i needa do some reflections. a devil in disguise indeed. i couldn't help it but broke down in the end.i laughed at it, i cried at it, i stared at it looking helplessly. i guess i need to consult a doctor. nevertheless, i've never been so bad like today. reflections are good. perhaps this is what i call a silent heartache that nobody can feel. but somehow jenn darling knew i was contradicting myself. saying things i dun mean it and behaving oddly are signs of avoidance. but i'm enlightened now. i woke up from my deepest nightmare. it's time to move on to a new life whereby angry and sad aren't in my dictionary.i'm sorrie to those i've hurt. and i'm glad to have realised that i've got such wonderful darlings who are there to give me moral support.looking forward to hong kong trip, even though i dun feel like going with the school. thinking of grabbing or ta bao-ing some gd-looking guys back to singapore for myself and jenn, i find it damn amusing to have said that to her. gonna renew my passport as soon as possible so that i can leave singapore anytime i want.according to some feedbacks, ppl commented my hair looks like JJ, kelly and a HAT??!! and ppl congratulated me for gaining weight. (T-T) time to resume my dieting plan. i ate one dumpling, a plate of fruits and 2 chicken wings for the whole of today. that's great. and i'm not feeling a single bit of hungry. keep up the good work maki.
10:38 PM//
Sunday, May 28, 2006
there was this girl, who likes this guy in her class. there was this guy, who likes this girl in his class. fear of rejection, both of them were afraid to confess their love to each other.they started out the relationship as buddy, a close friend that is more than a lover. and they were always being teased for looking like a couple. they blushed. coz deep inside their heart, that was what they wanted.at last, she confessed to him about her feelings towards him. he was elated and confessed to her too. this was when they realised they actually fell in love with each other since long time ago.as days passed, her attitude changed. she became quiet and was cold towards him. she had problems with her family, her studies and her friends, which caused her to be down with depression. yet, she didn't want him to worry about her and thus kept it as a secret. she cried almost everyday, silently. but he was tired of the relationship. he felt that the chemistry between them was no longer strong like before. finally, he broke up with her. Even though he still loves her, he decided that freedom for both was the best remedy to the situation. she, feeling heartbrokened, moved on with her life coz she believed those promises they had given to each other. holding on to a faith that some day he might come back to her while protecting him secretly like a guardian angel, that was the way she chose to love him.one day, she met with an accident at the crossroad near the post office. she was rushed to the hospital. he, upon knowing the bad news from her best friend, ran down to the hospital panicky. but... it was too late. she didn't make it through the accident. tears started flowing down his cheek when he saw her being wheeled out, with a white cloth covering her whole body.a month later, he received an unidentified parcel. he unwrapped the parcel and saw an enclosed letter with a photo album. he recognised her handwriting.the letter: "baby, today will be our one year anniversary if we were still together. here are some memories we shared and i gave them to u not because i chose to abandon them, but it's because i have them inside my heart. thank you for everything that you've given me and i believe my life has got no regrets after knowing you. i'll never forget all those beautiful moments we've spent together. and.. ya always the one i treasure and love. --love you always, your guardian angel"he was shocked to see that the parcel was dated on the day she met accident. knowing that she intended to have this parcel sent a month later which falls on their anniversary, he was touched and regretted for leaving her.*if you have anyone dearest to your heart, do treasure them and love them. nobody wants to live a life with regrets, ain't it? =D*
12:28 AM//
Thursday, May 25, 2006
i need a break from everything. breathless is the word to describe how i'm feeling now. the two CAs are over and guess what? project submissions are on their way haunting me. 3 projects to be handed in next week. i'm dead. seriously dead. and i still have to care about that store?!
i wish doraemon is here to lend me his round hand. or perhaps pull out some amazing stuff outta his pocket to save me. that is why i adore him so much. doraemon, sarang haeyo~~ nonono. doraemon was created by a jap. doraemon, aishiteru! daisuki dayo!
how i wish i'm a baby or child now. being protected and worry-free. when i feel like throwing tantrum, i'll just do it and not care about how others feel. sighs.. i guess admitting i've grown up is the only way to comfort myself.
my gorgeous daughter. she's super chio and sweet. zelia darling loves her too. this is the first time she entered bro's room without hiding behind my back. coz bro looks like a monster to her. and he definitely is! stealing my piglet is an evidence.
10:33 PM//
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
mummy stocked up our house with bird's nest and i'm falling in love with them. gonna drink it everyday just like fann and my skin will glow like her. i feel like a spoilt brat.anyway, my cute guy was sitting behind me during the free elective talk, which i shouldn't be there in the first place coz there isn't a need for me to take. and i was telling mayu i dun like him anymore after knowing he's that normal. his voice ain't that man even though he's gd-looking. *sad* my next target shall be duan cheng feng coz mayu said he has got a nice voice. sorrie jas, we shall share him okie? hope he's going to the hongkong trip so i can get the chance to know him more, or i shud say laugh at him more.and i was damn lucky and charming that i charmed the uncle with my eyes. he gave me EIGHT nuggets for the price of four [one buck]. god... shupin will be burning with green eyes coz she nv have this luck. *bleahx*the stupid blisters on both legs kept bleeding non-stop. but i enjoyed watching at the pink panther plasters chris bought for me coz they're super cute. =Di've got so many dearies and darlings but i love them all. haa.. i dunno what i'm saying anymore.-back to mugging-
8:49 PM//
Sunday, May 21, 2006
went swensen's for dinner just now. i guess i'm considered horrible to have eaten up two ice-cream waffles and french fries which mummy surrendered coz she was bloated.
i've got a long shopping list on my mind especially it's the GSS now. i want a citigem's bracelet. and i want a bright red or hot pink luggage for my hongkong tour. i've decided to bring a few sets of clothes only coz i predicted my luggage will be stuffed with new clothes, gifts, bears and whatever one can think of. i guess jasmine's gonna bring her whole house there just like what she did for chalet.
oh crap.. lots of project submissions and CAs coming on their way. they're flooding my life so much that i've got no time for suntanning. especially that d*mn cart which took away my precious time. i dunno what's holding me back to quit it even though i hated wasting time down there, being treated like an invisible slave. perhaps it's the word 'responsibility'. i'm practically testing my own patience. yeap. maybe one day i will just throw the stuff on the floor and shout "i quit!" right at his face. nah.. i'm not a meano. but it really stress me so much that i dreamt of that scenario.
duh~ gonna open the cart at 9 tml morning. tsumaranai!
11:06 PM//
Saturday, May 20, 2006
yeap..
due to boredom, i've decided to create a new bloggie.
i'm currently in a hongkong daze after knowing that bei long gals were shortlisted for the tour. we even planned what to do and what to buy already. me and darling planned to create havoc in sweetie pie and mayu-chan's room. instead of shitting in our own room, we shall fill up their room with the shit just like air-freshener. soon... i'm gonna fulfil my childhood dream of going to disneyland and flood myself with lots of mickey stuff.
i've got cravings for waffle and fondue so much so that i wanna run down to orchard in my pyjamus suit now. and sis just ordered a goodness biggg, no, i mean HUGE pizza from rocky pizza. it's two times the size of my head and it's super cheesy. that sums up my dinner or perhaps tml's breakfast. i'm super upset coz i couldn't get my elmo plushie from almost all the minitoons in singapore. they're sold out. duh~
that's all. shall find something else to kill my boredom.
6:53 PM//