i realised how evil, how meanie, how bitchy i was today. i needa do some reflections. a devil in disguise indeed. i couldn't help it but broke down in the end.
i laughed at it, i cried at it, i stared at it looking helplessly. i guess i need to consult a doctor. nevertheless, i've never been so bad like today. reflections are good. perhaps this is what i call a silent heartache that nobody can feel. but somehow jenn darling knew i was contradicting myself. saying things i dun mean it and behaving oddly are signs of avoidance. but i'm enlightened now. i woke up from my deepest nightmare. it's time to move on to a new life whereby angry and sad aren't in my dictionary.
i'm sorrie to those i've hurt. and i'm glad to have realised that i've got such wonderful darlings who are there to give me moral support.
looking forward to hong kong trip, even though i dun feel like going with the school. thinking of grabbing or ta bao-ing some gd-looking guys back to singapore for myself and jenn, i find it damn amusing to have said that to her. gonna renew my passport as soon as possible so that i can leave singapore anytime i want.
according to some feedbacks, ppl commented my hair looks like JJ, kelly and a HAT??!! and ppl congratulated me for gaining weight. (T-T) time to resume my dieting plan. i ate one dumpling, a plate of fruits and 2 chicken wings for the whole of today. that's great. and i'm not feeling a single bit of hungry. keep up the good work maki.
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